But I am OK!
Be happy with those who are happy, and weep with those who weep.
Today I am both happy & weepy. Our oldest, Abby, graduates high school today! We have homeschooled her since Kindergarten, and today I just can’t fathom that it’s all over. I am so happy for her, happy about the woman she is becoming, happy to have been her teacher all these years, happy to be her mom, and happy to have her as my close friend. I am also so sad to close this chapter; I don’t want it to be over. Just a little more time would be nice, but there is no more time; she’s all done. My heart is so complex since I can be so sad about something I am so happy about!
Only God can mix my sorrow with joy, fear with faith, and depression with hope. Without his Holy Spirit I would only have the sorrow, fear and depression. But God sustains my human emotions with his grace, and I am so glad!
The Apostle Paul describes the Renewed Sprit only God provides...
We are pressed on every side by troubles, but we are not crushed. We are perplexed, but not driven to despair... We get knocked down, but we are not destroyed... That is why we never give up. Though our bodies are dying, our spirits are being renewed every day. (See 2 Corinthians 4:8-16)
And Isaiah describes the New Strength God gives to those who love & trust him...
He gives power to the weak and strength to the powerless... But those who trust in the Lord will find new strength. They will soar high on wings like eagles. They will run and not grow weary. They will walk and not faint. (See Isaiah 40:29-31)
Rejoice with me; my baby has graduated! Cry a little with me too; my baby has graduated.
I am a mixture of emotions, but I am OK!
And here are more assurances from Scripture of God’s power over my emotions...
*Psalm 34:18 God saves my spirit from being crushed, so don’t worry about that crushed feeling that creeps in sometimes.
*Matthew 11:28 He gives me rest from what worries me.
*1 Peter 5:7 Tell God what I have anxiety over; he cares about every bit of it.
*Isaiah 41:10 God promises to be with me, strengthen me, and help me.
Thank you for making me OK! Thank you that I never have to be overwhelmed with sadness, depression or fear! Thank you for mixing these natural emotions with joy, faith, and hope. I am more excited about Abby’s future than worried because I trust you, and you are completely trustworthy! Thank you for giving us these years with such a beautiful, talented, and wonderful young lady! Bless her next steps, and may she always trust you and love you and follow you all the days of her life. Thank you! Thank you for Abby; in Jesus’ name I pray, amen.