Ephesians 3:18 NLT
And may you have the power to understand, as all God’s people should, how wide, how long, how high, and how deep his love is.
I realized I was uncomfortable with heights when my dad took my sister and me on the parachute ride at Knott’s Berry Farm when we were little. That rickety,tiny metal basket made of skinning little bars did not offer the kind of reassurance I required the further we got from the ground. I spent the whole ride clinging to my dad’s leg with my eyes shut tight. I did NOT enjoy the view from up there. I’ve also been snorkeling out in the middle of the ocean. My husband would dive down to get a better view of something but not me! I liked being right up by the surface sucking air through my tube-y thingie. And I know I could never have joined any exploration party in the 1490's sailing off into the open unknown; I get a twinge of anxiety just from being on an unfamiliar freeway where I don’t know what exit I’m looking for – is this road going to ever end? My adventures in height, depth & width have been scary.
Ephesians 3:18 can be lumped in with other passages describing God’s infinite love –
like Psalm 139:17-18 How precious are your thoughts about me, O God. They cannot be numbered! I can’t even count them; they outnumber the grains of sand! Yes, God’s love is immeasurable, but I find that the specifications of God’s love from Ephesians 3:18 to be daunting. Height, depth & width are scary; is God’s love scary?
I know the infinite amount of his love isn’t scary, but what about the height, depth & width he can explore my heart? That’s scary. Most people love only the parts of me I let them see. No one sees my selfish, jealous, sinful side, or I certainly would have no one’s love. But God not only is deep, wide & high, he goes deep, wide & high within my own heart. That is scary – he sees a lot of unflattering things and unbecoming thoughts deep inside there, yet he loves me anyway because of the fact that his love is immeasurable. I’m glad that because God can go deep that his love is deep. Isn’t that deep?
I could spend my life being embarrassed and horrified at what you see in my heart, but instead you fill me with your overwhelming love and peace that I certainly don’t deserve -- but because your love is so big. Thank you for having love for me that is immeasurable and allowing me to experience it every day whether I deserve it or not. I love you and appreciate you and thank you and pray in your Son’s name, amen.